Yesterday
Consisted of:
- Bike Rides
- Waterfront Picnic
- The Bins
- Fake Tattoos Applied with Spit
- After dark Playground Adventures
And just like that I’ve come back to life.
My life is pretty damn great
Except for the fact that I keep getting flats. WTF. I seriously just changed my tube two days ago. Same damn tire. I patched it and then bought a new tube when that didin’t work and I get out of work today and it’s flat AGAIN. Ughhhhhhhh..
I’m going to go run like 80 miles at the gym and punch the crap out of a heavy bag.
SO MAD.
I love Portland
I just got back from riding my bike to New Seasons to get some ingredients for some vegan chocolate peanut butter bars. Riding my bike always equals flying by other smiling bikers. It’s so hard not to be happy here. I’ve been struggling with depression lately, something I’m very new to. It’s due to going off anxiety meds a couple of months ago (an anti-depressant, my body has become used to extra happy chemicals). It’s hard. I feel very sad and hopeless to the point of crying some days and flat out not wanting to exist, but if I just push myself to get out of the house and get on my bike, or to a coffee shop, or whatever I feel so much better. Fresh air and happy people make up the SE side of Portland and I’m in love again.. that’s all it takes.
So I’m not going to go crawl in bed and feel sad. I’m going to
- Clean the kitchen
- Make vegan treats
- Weed the garden
- Meet my boyfriend for a drink when he gets off work
- Fall asleep reminding myself why I’m blessed in the arms of someone who loves me and supports me in everything that I do.
I’m blessed, blessed, I’m truly, truly blessed.
